Tomorrow is a New Day

Do you ever have those days where you think "Lord I need to go back to bed and start over and do this right!?" Today was that day for me. Here I thought I had done such a great job with my part of Mops and had the curriculum all typed up and planned out. With some help from Tara too. I even picked leaves from my lovely yard to dry out and take for the craft. While watching day care kids for 13 hours. I woke up early this morning got myself ready for the day. Then two daycare kids were dropped off and I had 1 hour to feed 4 girls, get two of them dressed, fix hair, change diapers, help the 3 yr. old who is potty training, then get them all in the car to be at the church at 8am. Moms can multitask right!? So all is well....I think. Then I forget to bring my list of ladies who are to help with watching our kids at MOPS. Good one I think to myself. We were a little short handed but nevertheless MOPS worked out though like it always does. Thank you to the ladies who are faithful to our moppets. I still felt bad though. I am very hard on myself and am negative when I am frustrated. After getting my oldest from school and then coming home. We all ate lunch then it was story time. Then my daycare child who is in potty training went potty or did she?? Well, she did but she decided to go #2 in her pants. Leaving a trail of it for my two year old to pick up to hand to me. WOW! I thought I had been grossed out, but until your child hands you someone else's poo don't talk to me. :)
So now it is nap time for the little ones. Not one of them was willing to take a nap after fighting with them for over an hour. So car ride it is for 30 minutes until Arielle is off from school. Thankfully 3 out of 5 were knocked out 2 miles into the ride. All the while my husband is in Canada and I can't share this with him. These are the times I should be on my knees asking God to see me through and to not worry, let him fill me with the spirit. To just let go and let God. Some thing that I am trying so hard to do. Right now I am struggling with my depression that I have had since I was a little girl. It affects me a lot when I am not on my correct medication (currently). Normally I would not talk about this. I guess I need to realize that it is just a part of me right now. Every day I battle with it and I am down on my knees now more than ever to ask for healing in this area. To learn to be a Godly Woman, Wife, Mother and to LOVE MYSELF regardless. I am not saying that I don't need to change anything about me. Just to start with loving myself. I have a Mother who I greatly adore. She taught me about the Lord and for that I will be forever grateful. Even if she did nothing else. I want to give that to my children. Lord help me to me kinder, smarter, gracious, loving to myself, and most of all an embassador for you. One thing a friend (Kristie) told me is that humans may fail you but the Lord never will. He is forever faithful. So true. I know I am not perfect, I will make mistakes like the next gal but working hard to let God take control is what is God's will for me. Hopefully some of this made some kind of sense. I realize I may have rambled. I leave you with these scriptures. Romans 3:23 "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God." & Hebrews 13:5 (also in Joshua) "I will never leave you nor for sake you."